I Did Not Become a Writer

 

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I think to say that some of us are passionate about writing, art, or photography, or any other way we choose to express ourselves is such an understatement.  It is not only in the arts where you find such passion, but also in the man who enjoys fixing cars, or one who does woodwork.  Life – gives us the opportunity to breathe passion into our work and our days.  For me, I think I have yet to find all that I am passionate about.  For now, it is poetry, writing, art, and photography, but I have room for so much more!

 

I Did Not Become a Writer

 

They never wanted

Me to be a writer

Words . . .

Were such silly

Useless things

Toys – perhaps

To play in times

Of boredom

But seriously,

Why write?

Why waste your time?

Those words

Resounded in my ears

And for many years

Words were left unspoken

Not a word

Writ on the page

My heart

Empty of song.

I stood silent

In the crowds

And only watched –

A featureless character

On barren landscape

Alive, but not living

A shell – without its contents

A whisper in the dead of night

Unheard ~ Unspoken ~ Unversed

And when I finally

Picked up the pen

My veins filled with ink

And words blossomed

At the touch

Of fingertips to blank page.

I experienced –

No dry well

No fallow lands

Instead, ink gushes

Like I’ve struck oil

And nothing

Can stop its flow.

In early days

I was imprisoned

By lack of words

No voice – no song

but now

I’m imprisoned

By flowing thoughts

And soaring words

And I gladly place

My shackles on.

I climb these prison walls

I SPEAK – I SCREAM – I WRITE

And oh, the passion flows

I know not where it takes me

But I gladly go

And no, dear reader

I never became a writer

For how can you become

Something you already were?

 

© Sumyanna 2015

 

Submitted for The Daily Word Prompt: passionate

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14 Comments Add yours

  1. Oh yes, very good Sumyanna! I love the defiance in this!! 🙂 You absolutely have to be yourself…. no matter what anyone else thinks. A brilliant and life affirming message!

    Sorry it’s been a while, but I did promise I’d get back to you in regard to your poetry being published in The Writing Garden, so… would this wonderful poem be okay to include in the next issue?

    I hope everything is going well for you my dear, especially with the home tuition? 🙂

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      I’ve always been a bit stubborn. The one way to ensure I do something is to say I cannot 🙂 However, with something you love – it is so hard to separate yourself from it. It is just a part of who you are. When I walk out the door, I absorb everything I see. I feel my senses with all my might – and it is not intentional, it is just who I am. To not write it down seems so strange and it is hard to think I actually did not write for 20 years or more before starting this past year. Oh, I am glad I am home!

      No worries. It was actually a nice surprise 🙂 I would be honored to have the poem in the next issue. Exciting!

      All is going well – with school and everything. I don’t know if you picked up on it – but two of my children have Dyslexia. My oldest was supported by me up until 8th grade and then she amazingly took off and does an excellent job on her own. I am so proud of her. Her youngest sister is also Dyslexic and she has it more severely. She only learned to read last year in 3rd grade. She works so very hard and is one bright little lady that just struggles but supersedes our expectations. This year, she has a teacher that requires A LOT of writing. Not only for literature, but even Math, History, Science. I am able to be a scribe for her, but also want her to learn how to do some things on her own. It is a lot of work some days. I also have her brother to teach who is in kindergarten. So, we are busy – but very happy with how things are going this year. I know at some point that little lady is going to walk out on her own and dazzle the world. Right now, I am cherishing every moment I can hold her small hands 🙂

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      1. I have known friends with dyslexia, it makes everything very difficult in the academic world. But there is more than one way to learn, that’s what I’ve discovered. What works for one person doesn’t work for another. My mother at one point thought I had dyslexia, but it turned out I didn’t. I had a lot of memory problems caused by an underlying illness that wasn’t recognised until I was in my 20’s. I had real trouble learning the correct order of the alphabet and multiplication, never could learn many of those, and was severely behind with reading and spelling too. School is a miserable place when you are so behind everyone else in the class. Then some of the bright ones take advantage by picking on your weaknesses – oh, so glad all that is long gone. I’m sure with personal tuition that will change a lot for your children, it’s definitely what they need. If they feel despondent in their struggle to learn, tell them you know someone who was just as behind, and felt she’d never catch up… but I did! 😀 If I could do it, absolutely anyone can. I’m sure they will grow up shining!!

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        1. Sumyanna says:

          Yes, Dyslexia isn’t easy but I have found that if you are patient and try each method until you can find one that works – it can make a difference in the outcome. I homeschool my kids and I can definitely say it is a struggle. However, they actually get very high marks in writing (even though many Dyslexic people struggle). It just took a lot of finding what learning methods fit them. I think that eventually they do improve through their struggle – but the main problem is that while they are struggling, life is telling them they are not good enough. They give up the fight before they develop the skills and most kids actually just hate what they aren’t good at – whether it be reading or writing. I could be wrong, but I have seen such a turnaround with my kids. My oldest absolutely hated reading and it took me 3 years of reading to her, listening to audio stories, reading stories and then comparing them to movies (to show you just can’t do as well in a movie) and now she is wanting to find opportunities to write. It is a wonderful thing.

          I know exactly what you mean about the experience in school. I think that is the main reason I wanted to homeschool my kids – to prevent that from happening. I (obviously) did not know they were going to have learning difficulties, but now that I do know I am that much more certain it was the right thing to do. School can be very harsh. So glad you got through it – all talents intact. It truly is a blessing.

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      2. Very pleased you’re happy with this one for The Writing Garden. Have got a lot of work to do on the issue and not a great deal of time, but hopefully, if I’m not too behind it will be published on 16th November. I’ll get back to you here when it’s posted. 🙂

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        1. Sumyanna says:

          I am thrilled 🙂 I know it must be a lot of work – I hope it goes smoothly for you. I used to do a lot of work in desktop publishing so I know how much work it can be. Thank you so very much!

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  2. love this Sum,relate to it much…beautiful poem…love hugs

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      I knew you would, but you write beautifully! Thank you Seema.

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  3. Delyn Merce says:

    I love this–it reminds me of the fact my writing was not acknowledged, growing up, or even later on by family. But as you say, if therein lies our passion (one of them, at least), we Must write–regardless of response.

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      You are not alone, sadly but I am so glad you keep at it! Just know it means a lot to others.

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      1. Delyn Merce says:

        Thank you for that kind word 🙂

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