Poem: I’m Me

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I'm Me

 

What is it, exactly

They just can’t see?

For when they look –

They look through me

Beyond me

And around me.

Are they afraid to trace

The gentle curve of my smile?

To see in the depths of my eyes?

What are they afraid

They’ll see?

A reflection of themselves…

Perhaps their worn expression,

Or their disappointed faces –

That the façade peels

It cracks and fades

And betrays

Their carefully painted canvas

Where intimacy is lacking

And they seek

Neither to know themselves

Nor the world around them,

Their sole desire – to swiftly

Ride into that sunset

Like eager, perfect-smiling showmen

Look at me

Look at what I have amassed

Look at what I’ve accomplished

And for all the shortage of clout

In hold in my two hands,

I looked at everyone

With unabashed eyes

Seeking their distinctive smile

Hoping for

The veracity in their song.

I struggled alone

Through the weight of my days

Under the crippling expectation

Of a counterfeit smile

I was real

I was real

I was me.

 

© Sumyanna 2018

 

Gorgeous image courtesy of Pixabay.com

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24 Comments Add yours

  1. drdeeptijain says:

    Hi sumyanna hope u are well .
    P.S. my domain name is changed to theseesawstories.wordpress.com

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      Thank you. I am following you there, but have been incredibly busy this year. I am just now starting to get back to blogging and hope to read more of you 🙂

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      1. deeptijain says:

        Hey dear nice to hear from you after a long time . Hope to see you soon with some write ups xxx hope you having a good year there

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        1. Sumyanna says:

          Yes, I have been gone quite a while and I miss everyone horribly 🙂 Things are calming down here so that is a blessing. I wish the same for you as well.

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          1. deeptijain says:

            Hmmm shall keep you in prayers and thoughts .. n thank you so much:))

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  2. Vinitha says:

    So beautifully expressed, Sumyanna. 🙂

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      Thank you so very much.

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  3. Neha Sharma says:

    This is really moving and passionate. I loved each word! 🙂

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      Thank you very much!

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  4. 7128788elf says:

    Hi Sumyanna, wonderful peace, showing you at your greatest depth and individuality. I can’t imagine anyone being able to not see the depth and wonder of you, though I think all to many people rush around with eyes open, but not able to see or understand. Great poem. Best wishes and blessings, Charles.

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      Oh, it has happened so many times I have stopped counting. It is sad, but I think we all have our own individual struggles. I am blessed that my husband and my children know. To me, that is more than enough 🙂 I have missed you – I’ve been away working hard on getting the kids ready for the real world. My oldest is going to college next year and it has taken a lot of work to sign her up for scholarships and visit colleges. I am slowly making my way back – it has taken a lot of scheduling and organization on my part, but I am not giving up on hope.

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  5. Yacoob says:

    I can relate somewhat. But I eventually ended up disregardimg the world – or so I like to think – because they disregarded me.

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  6. wolfnowl says:

    Wherever you go, be who you Are!!

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      I am still here, I promise 🙂 Things have been incredibly busy and I do hope to touch on that in a post this week. I just have to balance my time, so I only had time today to post a poem. It is good to finally be back though. I have missed you both!

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  7. … and a lovely “you” you must be! Such a nice poem!

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      So incredibly sweet. I thank you 🙂

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  8. Collective Logic says:

    Awesome

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      Thank you very much!

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    1. Sumyanna says:

      Thank you very much sweet lady 🙂 Hope you are having a lovely day.

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      1. I am. Everyone is away on holidays, I don’t have to be up at 5 to midnight, no cooking for anyone but me so I’m chillaxing woot

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