I can’t say how nice it is that I have been able to pop out of the house twice this week without breathing in smoke from the wildfires. I cannot express the joy loudly enough. It makes you realize just how much we take for granted, doesn’t it? The only problem with going outside today was that it was a bit colder than normal, but still – I think I’m going to get out there after I’m done here. It’s just too good to pass up. We even went walking in the evening a day or so ago. I can’t tell you how great that has been for my spirit! I absolutely love walking outdoors and have missed it greatly.
A few years ago, my daughter and I actually went walking each morning when it snowed. We’d strap on our crampons and go trudging through the snow. In most cases, no one was in sight. I don’t know if we’ll be able to do that this year or not, but I seriously have already told the kids that the first snow, I’m going out to throw snowballs and make a snowman. That’s how stuck indoors we have been 😉
Anyway, I’m trying to focus a lot more on mental balance and learning to do a lot more to take care of myself, because I’m just as valuable as the family members I take care of. I guess it must be something most Mommas have to learn – and it’s sad that I’m learning that so late in life. It actually feels good though, and I’m much more present and a lot less stressed because I’m making my needs just as important. For any of those – I’ll do everything to take care of everyone and sacrifice myself people (and you know who you are) – you have been warned, it’s not the best way to do things and it has a way of catching up to you.
So the focus now is on exercise, taking time to do things I enjoy, mindfulness, kindness to oneself, and to delve deeper into understanding who I am as a person and who I want to be. Yep, that’s what I’ve been working on all during this quiet time. Oh, and I’m not there yet – I’m just taking it one day at a time, but I am grateful for those silences that do come up every once in a while that allow me to see things much more clearly.
So now that I’ve rambled on, I’d like to share with you my recent walk through the gardens, reminiscing the pictures I’ve taken and the flowers which I have been blessed to make their acquaintance. I hope you enjoy!